Insanity

At the deepest level, one addiction is the same as another. Sugar, caffeine, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs. The more you have, the more you want. All have the potential to be habit forming. But they don't all have the same price tag. Unlike some other addictions, the signs of over-using tramadol aren't immediately obvious. There was …

The fine line between belief and denial

It's incredible to me, when I read through my volumes of journals knowing what I know now. . . . . . how is it possible that I could have been so very, very blind? Maybe I was distracted. By the time Dave went to rehab, I'd been raising babies for a decade. Four kids …

Another June

"You're not nothin'. You are not nothin'. You're a good man, and God has given you a second chance to make things right, John. This is your chance, honey." - June Carter, Walk the Line It's difficult to explain believing. If I tell you that one of the reasons I did not leave Dave back then was …

Maybe it’s me

There are days, weeks, months and even years in our history that are still difficult to talk about. Even last night, enjoying a lovely and rare meal out, discussing the blog -- we both have a hard time talking about certain memories. It's so unlike our life today. Sometimes it seems like a foggy nightmare. …

Every holiday a headache

Tramadol/Ultram was fairly new back then. Marketed as non-habit forming. Most definitely a wonder drug. Rather than making Dave groggy, like other pain medications, it helped him just be there. With three small children at that time, this drug was a miracle to me. Prior to taking tramadol, migraines meant Dave had a pillow over his …

I owe it to Oprah

I never knew an addict. At least, not one who admitted it to me. The only time I ever heard about addiction was in a testimony: what someone was like before they became a Christian. I didn't think it was possible for a Christian to have an addiction problem. And I didn't know the signs. …

And so it begins…

...welcome to enduring and after. A blog about going through hard things and getting your life back together afterward. For us, it was prescription drug addiction and all the mess that accompanies it. My husband, Dave, battled with addiction to tramadol (Ultram) for almost a decade before he -- and I -- hit rock bottom. Through …