on being fragile

Last year, or the year before, my dentist told me I needed gum surgeries. And I didn’t go back. Cut gum tissue from the roof of my mouth. Sew it to my receded gums. Heal. And repeat. No thank you. But now I’m in pain . . . I HATE going to the dentist. No. Really. Violently […]

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the truth heals, part two

The blog post today is written by Dave. In the previous post, I wrote about letting go of Dave’s recovery. My prayer in the last few years of his addiction finally became a simple, “If he’s lying, please don’t let him get away with it.” I still pray that prayer — for Dave and even for my […]

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there’s something I have to tell you

I’ve been doing this blog for almost a year now . . . and I still haven’t told our whole story. If I’m ever going to get it all out there, I’m going to have to be more consistent. More organized. More brave. * * * * * The writer Anne Lamott tweeted this the […]

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Redemption is real

“His life is a testament to how redemption, so often debased and abused in a 24/7 news cycle obsessed with celebrity and scandal, can be astonishingly powerful and real.” — Rich Lowry on Charles W. Colson I was writing an article recently for work and had to read some sections of Chuck Colson’s book, “Born […]

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Learning to hide

It’s been a long time since my last post. Sometimes, I struggle with a post for a few days and when it’s done it’s like I’ve knocked down another wall. And I need to let the dust settle before I work on the next. This particular wall is tough. It has taken years to understand […]

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Secrets

It’s so strange. How we keep secrets. And so human. It comes so naturally to us, that we are often uncomfortable around people who are open and honest about themselves. We’ve had some interesting responses — Dave and I — to his candid sharing and to this blog. But there is a place where we […]

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Weighing In

I’ve often been a swinging pendulum . . . an all or nothing kind of gal. Throwing all my energy here and then way over there.  Terribly messy and then Mommy Dearest-clean. Totally opposed to something and then really excited about it . . . and then not, again. . . But I’m fairly certain it’s better to live life more like a scale than […]

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“Fix it ’til it’s broke”

People are the way they are for a reason. I took a test a few weeks ago. The kind I love — asking lots of questions about me. The is called Strengthsfinder. And I’m completely fascinated by it. I do realize we aren’t all the same. But when I saw the results of the test, my […]

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Insanity

At the deepest level, one addiction is the same as another. Sugar, caffeine, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs. The more you have, the more you want. All have the potential to be habit forming. But they don’t all have the same price tag. Unlike some other addictions, the signs of over-using tramadol aren’t immediately obvious. There was […]

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